Happy belated birthday to me, Evan Makeba (podcast episode coming soon)!
As an birthday present, I would like sex. Wouldn't we all? Just generally like to have sex?
When said like that it seems like such a simple question. However an aspie I have to realize that not everyone thinks like myself. Some people are into the whole boy meets girl, they fall in love, have sex, get married, have baby and have less sex. That's cool.
However they are MILLIONS of other reasons why we have sex. My personal favourites are: Exercise, fun and making me and my partner (AKA right hand, left hand or sex toy) feel great about ourselves.
In an whirlwind TWO MINUTE video former(?) porn star now sex educator Chanel Preston goes through an number of reasons why we like doing the old 'in-out, in-out' as Alex from Clockwork Orange would call it.
If you like what you saw I strongly recommend you guys check her out at her sex-ed blog, here.
Showing posts with label asperger's syndrome. Show all posts
Showing posts with label asperger's syndrome. Show all posts
Monday, 16 February 2015
Thursday, 12 February 2015
The Effects Of An Autistic Public Outburst
Been awhile since I've posted on here because I've been REALLY poorly. So much so I barely go out anymore.
The reason why mostly is because on Thanksgiving of last year I had an public outburst causing under a grand worth of damage and I got arrested for it.
I've been so ashamed I haven't dared leave my flat.
So in order to fight against my anxiety and loneliness I've been focusing my work on my performing art website and working on it's podcast.
I still believe in the Black/Aspie Sheep Brigade message but right now, I'm a mess.
So I thought I would post the first episode on here explaining the struggles I've been dealing with since the incident.
Hope to post something on here soon.
The reason why mostly is because on Thanksgiving of last year I had an public outburst causing under a grand worth of damage and I got arrested for it.
I've been so ashamed I haven't dared leave my flat.
So in order to fight against my anxiety and loneliness I've been focusing my work on my performing art website and working on it's podcast.
I still believe in the Black/Aspie Sheep Brigade message but right now, I'm a mess.
So I thought I would post the first episode on here explaining the struggles I've been dealing with since the incident.
Hope to post something on here soon.
Sunday, 18 January 2015
The Fear Of Cat Calling Or Just Talking To Women On The Street For Aspie Men
ORCHESTRAL SUITE No. 3 in D minor.
Most people know an different arrangement used in the Hamlet cigar adverts. For me it reminds me of an character's brutal death in battle royale. It's so easy to tell the difference between right and wrong. To judge from afar. But sometimes when the chips are down, you've been on a nice winning streak and then disaster happens, most people 'don't want to be a loser anymore'. Sometimes it's better to burn out then to fade away. Some people deserve some time in the sun. Because similar people or even close friends don't get that chance. I love being an aspie. Everything is slowly making sense to me.
Even in the darkest days of self harm and suicidal thoughts... I'm learning about myself everyday and trying to organize myself and get the help needed to do some of the things that I can't or struggle to. Some aspies, you think they are lucky being blessed with wealth like Elliot Rodger but that doesn't change the fact he was extremely angry and frustrated so he went on a killing spree. Did he also kill himself?
Marcus Jannes did.
The 21 year old aspie from Norway hung himself live on webcam. Why? Struggled with social skills. Extremely lonely. I thought about giving you more names linked with aspergers syndrome, low social skills and harm themselves and yes on rare occasions other people but it's normally the self harm, poor socialising and an often mixed bag good and bad social traits. For example:
Most people know an different arrangement used in the Hamlet cigar adverts. For me it reminds me of an character's brutal death in battle royale. It's so easy to tell the difference between right and wrong. To judge from afar. But sometimes when the chips are down, you've been on a nice winning streak and then disaster happens, most people 'don't want to be a loser anymore'. Sometimes it's better to burn out then to fade away. Some people deserve some time in the sun. Because similar people or even close friends don't get that chance. I love being an aspie. Everything is slowly making sense to me.
Even in the darkest days of self harm and suicidal thoughts... I'm learning about myself everyday and trying to organize myself and get the help needed to do some of the things that I can't or struggle to. Some aspies, you think they are lucky being blessed with wealth like Elliot Rodger but that doesn't change the fact he was extremely angry and frustrated so he went on a killing spree. Did he also kill himself?
Marcus Jannes did.
The 21 year old aspie from Norway hung himself live on webcam. Why? Struggled with social skills. Extremely lonely. I thought about giving you more names linked with aspergers syndrome, low social skills and harm themselves and yes on rare occasions other people but it's normally the self harm, poor socialising and an often mixed bag good and bad social traits. For example:
pro - I can be obsessive and passionate about things I like and enjoy, picking random facts out of the air I have practically remembered all my life.
Con - poor organizational skills. This includes time management and random tasks.
And of course, my social skills. Admittedly I'm not as bad as some aspies but I can make groups of people feel uncomfortable and I'm extremely bad with cues in conversations. I remember almost being banned from a group's events because I was that hardcore. I made a decision after that to all but stop going to those events. I feel embarrassed to show my true colours and also I HATE being censored. I just wish some people would know the differences between my jokes and my actual facts. This makes meeting new girls hard enough job as it is but there's an double edged sword with '10 hours being a woman in NYC' trending online.
I keep getting flash backs to clips of pick up artists uploading videos of sexual assault and harassment. But I know there also exists videos of mixed groups of people casually chatting, nicely. Friendly. Why don't these videos ever trend? My fear is this: we are living in a world full of strangers and enemies.
I keep getting flash backs to clips of pick up artists uploading videos of sexual assault and harassment. But I know there also exists videos of mixed groups of people casually chatting, nicely. Friendly. Why don't these videos ever trend? My fear is this: we are living in a world full of strangers and enemies.
I remember an car advertistment featuring a somewhat food chain of traffic and travel: the pedestrian hates the cyclist, the cyclist hates the car drivers and I think if I remember it right EVERYONE hates the truck/lorries. See what I meant about random facts. I'm concerned more education is needed NOW. To understand where people are coming from. Monogamous dislike polyamorous. Polyamorous hate swingers. Swingers (seem to) dislike transgender/gender community. But I'm getting of topic.
I have seen a number of newspapers articles about Twitter wars of the sexes. Lesbians arguing with transgender off the top of my head but one between cis men and a woman made me itch my head. The woman in the 10 hours NYC actually enjoys being cat whistled? I think it's called that. Some women enjoy the attention and so they should. I appreciate a beautiful woman as much as anyone. But I'm terrified about coming across as creepy if I tell them that or similar. I'm very confident and I have certain tastes: women left alone for a bit in a bar/club is like parking a sports car in a ghetto. Sometimes they can get stolen. Often. Or the fear of it. But I didn't proper read the twitter war between the man at the butchers and the food blogger who took offensive being told she 'sounds sexy' on the phone. I guess it's all about content. But that might be the problem. It's not the phrases themselves but the TIMING of those phrases. Sometimes. Which brings me back to my original issue.
I can only pray I make it Crystal clear to the women I speak to the difference between me being nice, me badly flirting or me poking fun with my female friends. I just hope I'm original when chatting online.
Saturday, 27 December 2014
Keyboard Sexist Warriors Vs White Knights: Why being a dick and being as Aspie Man are NOT mutually exclusive
Right off the bat? Happy birthday, Ruby.
It's been a tough time for the love I have for my daughter and I.
Due to 'relationship matters' with adults we haven't been able to hang out as much as I would like.
I would love for us to hang out with family and friends for weekend but it hasn't been possible. Mostly grown ups are to blame. Grown ups fucking suck. But on the flip side my hatred for teenage boys could reach fever pitch at any moment. Then again over the top holier than thou feminists could tempt me to start owning cats.
It's been a funny day going into my daughter's birthday. Family had a huge get together so I mainly hid in my room listening to mental health happy hour (a podcast I highly recommend) and exploring the Guys We Fucked podcast. Guys, This week I did my first ever podcast for my personal blog and I'm hoping it's not long until I do a podcast for this site. So for me the way to learn what I like and can do for others in a podcast depends on what podcasts I listen to and what you guys need in a podcast. The one thing I love about Happy Hour and so far GWF podcast is a similar sense of humour. A reason why I watch, subscribe and bum the fuck out of Watch Girls Play.
One: Humour and cussing. I think they mostly have similar humour and some beliefs that I do.
Two: I find them all attractive. Because I'm vain and visit all women family members, sister, mum, daughter. There are very few men in my life and I doubt I would accept them. Because most men are cunts. These are facts.
Three quickly is playing the games I don't have the balls to play but I need to go back a step. It's the reason why I'm writing this pitch dark at 5 in the morning.
Mankind, I am fucking ANGRY at you.
Listening to GWF and previous posts on here about war of the sexes it's easy to understand why there is such a thing as this war however neither side does anything to calm down the war and tonight... Well that was a super example. I just spend 20 minutes before bed watching properly twitch player Kaceytron and I was horrified at the abuse she was getting in game and in chat.
Now I'm not the type of twitch-er which watching hours on end. I'll watch here and there mainly female streamers. But from what I understand mods are in place, the chat is mostly respectful and friendly. So I'm not sure if this was Troll Thursday or mods were on a coffee break but someone clearly pissed off someone and I started watching slap bang in the middle of a steam voice chat fight. Let's say chat fight in future as it reminds me of cat fight and kind of continues the female linked theme of this post.
As I continue to tell you guys, banter I'm all for. I'm hoping even Happy Hour can back me up on this. Some mother fuckers in the world are too coddamn sensitive. They need Jesus. But the abuse and name calling I heard, maybe it's the father or the literal (only) about the man or even the I love most female non monogamous pervert in me just saw this abuse and it made my blood BOIL. I heard something about sexual acts: listen to me. E-fucking-nough with this men do it, they are awesome women do it they are sluts shit. For real. I'm cunting sick of it. Then again I feel this post should be the random yet fitting end to the Sexes War Trilogy which has hurt my brain for so long. The first two, yes. I'm aspie. I'm awkward and I have no idea how to talk to women. I have to play the Rocky soundtrack to go out and buy milk. I am fucking lonely. But this one? Yes. Of course I'd like to get into a lady's pants as well as her arms as a future result of this post but:
NO WOMEN SHOULS HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF THEIR SEXUALITY OR FEELINGS ABOUT SEX. WHETHER IT'S MONOGAMOUS, NON, NONE OR OTHER.
EVER.
In fact no one should full stop.
I keep thinking of the time I when to a school in a working class town and I was walking with some male friends. Ahead of us was a lesbian school girl (which is a hot phrase I never thought I would type in a serious context) and my mates took it upon themselves to start throwing insults at this girl. I remember saying that everyone should be free to do and choose their own path in life or words to that effect. The girl turned around after I said this. I thought she was going to punch me but she actually offered me a chewing gum. We've been friends for over 20 years now. Actually she is now a he. But I will still support them. Always. Unless he starts supporting Manchester United. Only cunts support Manchester United. Trust me. I'm an arsenal fan.
And I'm pretty sure only cunts would throw sex based insults at women on the internet. Mainly teen aged boys. I don't believe there is any point of throwing insults at girl gamers. As men surely that's one of the things we look for in the ideal life/long term partner. Similar interests. Now I'm not saying Watch Girls Play, Kaceytron, Ssniperwolf shall be in my bedroom naked already beginning the orge because they couldn't wait for my cock but showing those women respect not just for gaming and being pretty female gamers but are they not human beings? I would love to know how many of these abusive men would be abusive in real life?
For my daughter's and my knuckles sake not many and less that she knows them and lesser that I see them. She is getting to an age where she is starting to learn about sex, boys and how it all 'works'. Gross.
But I don't want her to be let down by men. Like I let down her mum when I was young and stupid. Granted it wasn't anything life changing but I hurt her. And I'm sorry. Any men who tells a woman he will never hurt doesn't grasp the concept of time and clearly isn't breathing. We are imperfect humans. Of course we make mistakes. Only the brave ones apologies for those mistakes.
So if you are thinking I'm going to say sorry for those online male abusive behaviours, I'm not. What would be the point? Most trolls are teen boys. They are still get to become men. I just hope some of them grow up to say sorry and apology.
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It's been a tough time for the love I have for my daughter and I.
Due to 'relationship matters' with adults we haven't been able to hang out as much as I would like.
I would love for us to hang out with family and friends for weekend but it hasn't been possible. Mostly grown ups are to blame. Grown ups fucking suck. But on the flip side my hatred for teenage boys could reach fever pitch at any moment. Then again over the top holier than thou feminists could tempt me to start owning cats.
It's been a funny day going into my daughter's birthday. Family had a huge get together so I mainly hid in my room listening to mental health happy hour (a podcast I highly recommend) and exploring the Guys We Fucked podcast. Guys, This week I did my first ever podcast for my personal blog and I'm hoping it's not long until I do a podcast for this site. So for me the way to learn what I like and can do for others in a podcast depends on what podcasts I listen to and what you guys need in a podcast. The one thing I love about Happy Hour and so far GWF podcast is a similar sense of humour. A reason why I watch, subscribe and bum the fuck out of Watch Girls Play.
One: Humour and cussing. I think they mostly have similar humour and some beliefs that I do.
Two: I find them all attractive. Because I'm vain and visit all women family members, sister, mum, daughter. There are very few men in my life and I doubt I would accept them. Because most men are cunts. These are facts.
Three quickly is playing the games I don't have the balls to play but I need to go back a step. It's the reason why I'm writing this pitch dark at 5 in the morning.
Mankind, I am fucking ANGRY at you.
Listening to GWF and previous posts on here about war of the sexes it's easy to understand why there is such a thing as this war however neither side does anything to calm down the war and tonight... Well that was a super example. I just spend 20 minutes before bed watching properly twitch player Kaceytron and I was horrified at the abuse she was getting in game and in chat.
Now I'm not the type of twitch-er which watching hours on end. I'll watch here and there mainly female streamers. But from what I understand mods are in place, the chat is mostly respectful and friendly. So I'm not sure if this was Troll Thursday or mods were on a coffee break but someone clearly pissed off someone and I started watching slap bang in the middle of a steam voice chat fight. Let's say chat fight in future as it reminds me of cat fight and kind of continues the female linked theme of this post.
As I continue to tell you guys, banter I'm all for. I'm hoping even Happy Hour can back me up on this. Some mother fuckers in the world are too coddamn sensitive. They need Jesus. But the abuse and name calling I heard, maybe it's the father or the literal (only) about the man or even the I love most female non monogamous pervert in me just saw this abuse and it made my blood BOIL. I heard something about sexual acts: listen to me. E-fucking-nough with this men do it, they are awesome women do it they are sluts shit. For real. I'm cunting sick of it. Then again I feel this post should be the random yet fitting end to the Sexes War Trilogy which has hurt my brain for so long. The first two, yes. I'm aspie. I'm awkward and I have no idea how to talk to women. I have to play the Rocky soundtrack to go out and buy milk. I am fucking lonely. But this one? Yes. Of course I'd like to get into a lady's pants as well as her arms as a future result of this post but:
NO WOMEN SHOULS HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF THEIR SEXUALITY OR FEELINGS ABOUT SEX. WHETHER IT'S MONOGAMOUS, NON, NONE OR OTHER.
EVER.
In fact no one should full stop.
I keep thinking of the time I when to a school in a working class town and I was walking with some male friends. Ahead of us was a lesbian school girl (which is a hot phrase I never thought I would type in a serious context) and my mates took it upon themselves to start throwing insults at this girl. I remember saying that everyone should be free to do and choose their own path in life or words to that effect. The girl turned around after I said this. I thought she was going to punch me but she actually offered me a chewing gum. We've been friends for over 20 years now. Actually she is now a he. But I will still support them. Always. Unless he starts supporting Manchester United. Only cunts support Manchester United. Trust me. I'm an arsenal fan.
And I'm pretty sure only cunts would throw sex based insults at women on the internet. Mainly teen aged boys. I don't believe there is any point of throwing insults at girl gamers. As men surely that's one of the things we look for in the ideal life/long term partner. Similar interests. Now I'm not saying Watch Girls Play, Kaceytron, Ssniperwolf shall be in my bedroom naked already beginning the orge because they couldn't wait for my cock but showing those women respect not just for gaming and being pretty female gamers but are they not human beings? I would love to know how many of these abusive men would be abusive in real life?
For my daughter's and my knuckles sake not many and less that she knows them and lesser that I see them. She is getting to an age where she is starting to learn about sex, boys and how it all 'works'. Gross.
But I don't want her to be let down by men. Like I let down her mum when I was young and stupid. Granted it wasn't anything life changing but I hurt her. And I'm sorry. Any men who tells a woman he will never hurt doesn't grasp the concept of time and clearly isn't breathing. We are imperfect humans. Of course we make mistakes. Only the brave ones apologies for those mistakes.
So if you are thinking I'm going to say sorry for those online male abusive behaviours, I'm not. What would be the point? Most trolls are teen boys. They are still get to become men. I just hope some of them grow up to say sorry and apology.
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Monday, 17 November 2014
It's A War Of The Sexes, never get it blud!
My daughter is nearly 11.
I'm pretty sure she is already aware of the concept of war. The first lines of that song mentions Mike having a child and it asking him what war is. Well weapon!
Since my outpouring of emotions of sexual, social and mental frustration in a post earlier this month I've decided within my aspie mind that everyone in the world hates everyone.
So to 'celebrate' this let's at each side of the coin covered by posts on this blog.
First a friend of mine. An feminist. Yes I am friends with feminists because they realise my token black guy routine in youtube videos is just that. A routine. If course calling everyone either a 'nigga', 'bitch' or 'faggot' doesn't mean I'm a member of Combat 18. It just means I listen to a lot of hip hop music and know street terms, where words have multiple reasons and can be used as nouns or objectives. In the post we discuss the pressures of being a beautiful woman in the eyes of society. Being in constant pain to shaving and of course, cat calling.I have no idea why it's called that. Pussy? Post related. Possibly.
The next blog is myself, the creative director of this place having a good old fashioned rant about my fellow man.
There's a blog out there which seems to date back women's rights a good 40 years for the 'good' of masculine ones. I like mentioning I spent a large number of years being from a single parent family do I am very in favour of feminist rights, however I am curious about being the alpha male who dominates other men, own everything he touches and provides knowledge and things to my family but some of those rules in that blog are fucking ridiculous.
The fact of some less cunty men like myself very counted with the cunty douchbaggy boys in the same basket really pisses me off.
Understand, this rage doesn't come from being a man wanting to get laid due to his curiosity of female rights.
It comes from the days where my mum tried to play my mum and my dad with my upbringing. Fighting and hustling even to this day for everything she beliefs in. I think that's why our fights is something of a verbal Dragon Ball Z of destruction.
There's a blog out there which seems to date back women's rights a good 40 years for the 'good' of masculine ones. I like mentioning I spent a large number of years being from a single parent family do I am very in favour of feminist rights, however I am curious about being the alpha male who dominates other men, own everything he touches and provides knowledge and things to my family but some of those rules in that blog are fucking ridiculous.
The fact of some less cunty men like myself very counted with the cunty douchbaggy boys in the same basket really pisses me off.
Understand, this rage doesn't come from being a man wanting to get laid due to his curiosity of female rights.
It comes from the days where my mum tried to play my mum and my dad with my upbringing. Fighting and hustling even to this day for everything she beliefs in. I think that's why our fights is something of a verbal Dragon Ball Z of destruction.
We give a shit in what we believe in. Even if sometimes I get confused thanks to my aspergers or and I'm triggered and decide to head butt the carpet until my head is busted open.
And yes that did happen once, to my embarrassment.
So... Here's the post about that blog. Forgotten the name of the blog.
And yes that did happen once, to my embarrassment.
So... Here's the post about that blog. Forgotten the name of the blog.
So what are your thoughts on the seemingly most opinionated of issues of late?
You pro or do you rebuke cat calling? Are you red blooded in your manliness or are you an metro-male?
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You pro or do you rebuke cat calling? Are you red blooded in your manliness or are you an metro-male?
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Sunday, 15 December 2013
Celebrities Who Have Lived And Died Due To Being Different
Repeat after me; Pizza and booze ALL WEEKEND LONG... Is NOT my mother fucking friend.
After Friday's post all I've done this weekend is eat pizza and drink. I'm working the best I can with ebay listing, our store and my performing art blog. So the goal was a little self medication was deserved. Weirdly after Saturday's MLP episode I felt like... This 19' inch pizza is NOT going to be eaten in one day. I write this on a Sunday and as of right now, my stomach acid is turning that pizza into... Actually, I don't actually know and I can't be bothered to google.
You could wiki it, if you wish. I can't be arsed.
I mention wiki because I'm a little pissed off no mention of Heath's anxiety (He was taking medication for which with an accidental cocktail of other drugs due to an painful injury lead to his death) but I feel people could be upset as I don't know much about Ledger's films apart from the most hyped pre-ultimate film he made; The Dark Knight.
Side note; I always find normal society's treatment of the death of a celebrity hilarious. At first there's much respect, time of thought, blah blah blah. However I find most final films of the deceased John Candy in Canadian Bacon or the film he actually died on filming, Wagons East. Or in this case The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus seemly ignored by critics and public like. In Ledger's case more seemingly weird considering it did okay at the Box Office.
I really hope the promo team for Paul Hunter's last film really puts the effect in into trying their best efforts to make Paul's last film a success. Providing it isn't shit. Sadly like Wagons East was.
Admittedly I wasn't going to feature Anna. I was one of the many who thought she was a gold digging bitch. She might have been but that's for the forces higher than us to judge. Not us.
I was looking for an article which was the inspiration for the post and during my google searches for the key words that could help me find it (doesn't help I've like an hour ago deleted my 4 week history) I came across ANS toxicology report on a celeb dirt sheet blog bollocks.
I fucking hate those celeb blogs. Reminds me of annoying old ladies spreading gossip over garden fences.
The drugs found in her body after her death were used to treat weight control problems, panic attacks and anxiety.
I think I'd like to read more of ANS and maybe revalue who she was. It's so easy to judge and hate. It's a lot harder to forgive and love.
Frankly, the reason why I know it's okay to be different. I've been a fan of Marshall since 1999. Singing along with the lyrics, making my own lyrics up about murdering people and generally scaring the shit out of friends by correctly acting out Randy's death scene starring me as Ghost face in Scream 2. By the way if Counter Strike has taught me anything it's people running away run FASTER than people running with knifes.
I'm just kidding about that last one.
Although I have dreamed about chasing half naked women with a BB gun in a park. A few times.
Needless to say I'm a bit of a 'Stan'. Covered in Chocolate.
From research I've looked at, Marshall hasn't stated he himself has a mental illness but a lot of his lyrics frankly sing to me as someone who does struggle.
Marshall however has confirmed he has been addicted to valium (used to treat anxiety, alcohol withdraw and others) and Xanax (treated for panic attacks and anxiety).
Other than having the best name in the WORLD (my daughter's name is Ruby and you opinion of better names is irrelevant), Ruby Wax has ninja-like been present all my life.
Seeing her as a Kid in the UK version of 'Who's Line Is It Anyway) and being a talented actress who was in shows like The Professionals AND joining The Royal Shakespeare Company, something I've always dreamed of doing...
By the way? Rest in peace, Peter O' Toole...
And also doing a talk at a TED on mental illness. She also is a campaigner for mental illness awareness and an author on mental illness as well as graduated in master's degree in mindfulness based cognitive therapy and earned a postgraduate certificate in psychotherapy and counselling.
She is NOT a celebrity.
She IS a FUCKING LEGEND.
Ruby suffers from depression, bipolar and has a started a social network called black dog tribe. No relation. ;)
After Friday's post all I've done this weekend is eat pizza and drink. I'm working the best I can with ebay listing, our store and my performing art blog. So the goal was a little self medication was deserved. Weirdly after Saturday's MLP episode I felt like... This 19' inch pizza is NOT going to be eaten in one day. I write this on a Sunday and as of right now, my stomach acid is turning that pizza into... Actually, I don't actually know and I can't be bothered to google.
You could wiki it, if you wish. I can't be arsed.
Heath Ledger
Side note; I always find normal society's treatment of the death of a celebrity hilarious. At first there's much respect, time of thought, blah blah blah. However I find most final films of the deceased John Candy in Canadian Bacon or the film he actually died on filming, Wagons East. Or in this case The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus seemly ignored by critics and public like. In Ledger's case more seemingly weird considering it did okay at the Box Office.
I really hope the promo team for Paul Hunter's last film really puts the effect in into trying their best efforts to make Paul's last film a success. Providing it isn't shit. Sadly like Wagons East was.
Anna Nicole Smith
I was looking for an article which was the inspiration for the post and during my google searches for the key words that could help me find it (doesn't help I've like an hour ago deleted my 4 week history) I came across ANS toxicology report on a celeb dirt sheet blog bollocks.
I fucking hate those celeb blogs. Reminds me of annoying old ladies spreading gossip over garden fences.
The drugs found in her body after her death were used to treat weight control problems, panic attacks and anxiety.
I think I'd like to read more of ANS and maybe revalue who she was. It's so easy to judge and hate. It's a lot harder to forgive and love.
Marshall Mathers (Aka Eminem)
I'm just kidding about that last one.
Although I have dreamed about chasing half naked women with a BB gun in a park. A few times.
Needless to say I'm a bit of a 'Stan'. Covered in Chocolate.
From research I've looked at, Marshall hasn't stated he himself has a mental illness but a lot of his lyrics frankly sing to me as someone who does struggle.
Marshall however has confirmed he has been addicted to valium (used to treat anxiety, alcohol withdraw and others) and Xanax (treated for panic attacks and anxiety).
Ruby Wax
Other than having the best name in the WORLD (my daughter's name is Ruby and you opinion of better names is irrelevant), Ruby Wax has ninja-like been present all my life.
Seeing her as a Kid in the UK version of 'Who's Line Is It Anyway) and being a talented actress who was in shows like The Professionals AND joining The Royal Shakespeare Company, something I've always dreamed of doing...
By the way? Rest in peace, Peter O' Toole...
And also doing a talk at a TED on mental illness. She also is a campaigner for mental illness awareness and an author on mental illness as well as graduated in master's degree in mindfulness based cognitive therapy and earned a postgraduate certificate in psychotherapy and counselling.
She is NOT a celebrity.
She IS a FUCKING LEGEND.
Ruby suffers from depression, bipolar and has a started a social network called black dog tribe. No relation. ;)
Dan Aykroyd
Speaking of legends, Dan Aykroyd.
Ghostbusters.
Dan's character summons the Marshmellow Man for the boys to fight.
The Blues Brothers.
One of my favourite films, Trading Places.
Dragnet.
FUCKING DRAGNET!!
Another one of my favourites!! Why doesn't that film get MORE love?! It was fucking awesome!!
The list goes on.
And also rumoured to reprise role as 'Dickless' Raymond Stantz in Ghostbusters 3... Yawn...
Frankly, I've heard that rumour all the way through my training as a actor. Along with the Goonies sequel.
We'll see.
Dan has Asperger's Symdrone (like me!) and tourettes.
Susan Boyle
I don't know much about her work but everytime I see her on TV (when off the rare times I DO watch), I think she's fucking awesome. The Peediepie before Peediepie started trending.
Her first appearence on Britain's Got Talent on youtube has... Jesus fucking Christ. IS THAT EVEN A REAL NUMBER?!
140,200,270 views
Fuck it. Lemmie try reading that shit. Over one hundred forty... No, wait... One hundred billion, forty million, two hundred million? Bollocks.
I'll just stick with easier numbers.
2 Grammy nominations.
Debut album debuting at number one.
Seven plus two is nine... Plus one... Equals ten time platinum albums just in the UK alone.
And never mind wild horses, a true dark horse that was told she would never make it. Would never been successful. Being put down by those at her BGT audition and everyone else who voted for who the fuck ever disappearing acts from that show.
And recently has been dianogsed as being an aspie girl! I say welcome!
These are just some examples of people in a high profile spotlight who still do what they did, entertain you. Inspire you. I tell people I'm coming back as an performing artists and I get yeah, yeah, yeah... My anxiety kicks in but I still believe if and when the right project comes along it will be hard for me to say no. It will be tricky for me to NOT leave the house. It will be impossible when the spotlights are on me or the curtain rises for me not to do the best I can.
You just have to believe in YOU. I can only lead you so far. YOU have to know despite these shitty illnesses we have or concerned our different way of thinking will scare others you can still achieve greatness.
I forgot to mention transgender artists like Lana Wachowski and Laura Jane Grace. Matrix is still one of my all time favourite films. And why shouldn't it be?
By the way, I don't know Laura's work pre or post transformation in Against Me. Sorry!
Frankly if your fans disabanded you because you show your true self, they clearly wasn't fans in the first place. I can't not think of Darren Young when writing that last sentence.
Stay classy, black sheep.
:)
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And yes. diffentities is NOT a word.
Monday, 2 December 2013
Why THAT Blog and It's Form Of Masculity is utter Tesco value BOLLOCKS
It's 25 to five. I don't normally drink this early.
I dunno, I've just been on a downer all day. I feel like people are ignoring me and ironically I don't want to rally talk about it. It's only a half but I already feel like I wanna get wankered this weekend. I turned 18 the year 2k in a lad mag culture of getting drunk, making a tit of yourself and pulling 'birds' left, right and centre. Also is nerd weekend where my beloved my little pony friendship is magic returns and the TV showing of the new Doctor Who which not only celebrates the show' s 50th birthday but also I believe the first time there will be two doctors, David Tennard and the most recent doctor, Matt Smith.
A deadly cocktail for an excuse to forgot your ambitions.
Even now I'm thinking of I drank a bit more, I'd get courage to talk to a girl, not because I fancy her, because I think I've met her before.
But today I'm a nervous fucking wreck. The irony is fucking hilarious. I think to live the life I lead.. you need balls of steel as well as acceptance. The power to walk strongly and know who you are and to be unapologetic about it. I consider myself this neo gentleman bad man. My beliefs have bent in order to adjust to my new way of life: a polyamorous free range aspie guy.
There are others like me but with a stronger following. An American blog which hopes for the 'return of the hetrosexual masculine men' is getting alot of press of late... but I will not name it here, as I consider myself hetrosexual masculine men... Who is comfortable with who I am. Yes I have played as a bi and yes I am trans-friendly but I am attractive to WOMEN, FULL STOP. In any shape or form. It is the emotional connection I am after rather than the pure sex appeal. JUST sex can be boring, I find.
A deadly cocktail for an excuse to forgot your ambitions.
But today I'm a nervous fucking wreck. The irony is fucking hilarious. I think to live the life I lead.. you need balls of steel as well as acceptance. The power to walk strongly and know who you are and to be unapologetic about it. I consider myself this neo gentleman bad man. My beliefs have bent in order to adjust to my new way of life: a polyamorous free range aspie guy.
There are others like me but with a stronger following. An American blog which hopes for the 'return of the hetrosexual masculine men' is getting alot of press of late... but I will not name it here, as I consider myself hetrosexual masculine men... Who is comfortable with who I am. Yes I have played as a bi and yes I am trans-friendly but I am attractive to WOMEN, FULL STOP. In any shape or form. It is the emotional connection I am after rather than the pure sex appeal. JUST sex can be boring, I find.
THIS blog from it's about page reads the following:
The blog is "meant for a small but vocal collection of men in America today who believe men should be masculine and women should be feminine.
1. Men and women are genetically different, both physically and mentally. Sex roles evolved in all mammals. Humans are not exempt.
2. Women are sluts if they sleep around, but men are not. This fact is due to the biological differences between men and women.
3. Men will opt out of monogamy and reproduction if there are no incentives to engage in them.
4. Past traditions and rituals that evolved alongside humanity served a net benefit to the family unit.
5. Testosterone is the biological cause for masculinity. Environmental changes that reduce the hormone’s concentration in men will cause them to be weaker and more feminine.
6. A woman’s value is mainly determined by her fertility and beauty. A man’s value is mainly determined by his resources, intellect, and character.
7. Elimination of traditional gender roles and the promotion of unlimited mating choice in women unleashes their promiscuity and other negative behaviors that block family formation.
8. Socialism, feminism, and cultural Marxism cause societies to decline because they destroy the family unit, decrease the fertility rate, and require large entitlements that impoverish the state."
Oh, and by the way:
"Women and homosexuals are prohibited from commenting here. They will be immediately banned."
Ugh. This writing is becoming my Everest. It's now early Tuesday morning and I have so much to articulate with this posting.
The point is this blog similar to this blog speaks to a very small group of people.
I first started writing this blog with a vague idea of what it is. Now I'm a little clearly; it's a lifestyle blog where the writing is about general subjects but aimed at people with mental illnesses who don't mind a bit of blue language. The sub-groups within that area are welcome here. I wanted to aim for my own type of people such as bronies, polyamorous and asperger's people but that's just me.
And by the way, I'm still on a downer. Droggy. Anti-social. Pushing people away. But at least I know who I am; neo-masculine red blooded man. I'd like to prepare myself to the above mentioned blog.
- Men and women are genetically different, both physically and mentally. Sex roles evolved in all mammals. Humans are not exempt.
I'd break that sentence up so the back is front and the front is back. Not sure why I would do that as I agree with the sex roles bit. To a point.
And to a point the genetically different bit. But I like to think there's an element of belief that they are unable to fathom that women are capable of being profitable in male dominated fields and to add touches to possibly surpass the men. I think NLF (National Football League) for the men, I think LFL (Legends Football League) for the women. I think MMA male fighter Anderson Silva, I think Ronda Rousey.
The sex roles comment is interesting on so many levels. Not only on kinky BDSM forms but also the acceptance of trans-gender men and women. We are still evolving as humans. And I'm all for it as a masculine. As mentioned before I've never had a trans-gender girlfriend but I'm eager to do so. I do not consider myself gay or even bisexual. I do feel that... Maybe they will be just as or more forgiving and accepting of me as a red blooded weirdo (aspie poly brony). The female figure for me is important but I find myself liking a bit of toyboy in my ladies. Or submissive in their feminism. Which goes with the whole animal thing earlier; the need to breed and somewhat conquer everything the animal sees. Getting ahead of myself.
- Women are sluts if they sleep around, but men are not. This fact is due to the biological differences between men and women.
Plus I'm not a fucking scienist. Hence me suddenly fucking remembering the word 'fuck' is in the fucking English dictionary. I can only tell you what I believe. And I believe the blog mention is WRONG in it's beliefs. But bully for them and their supporters for existing. But it's like when I see a nigga being arrested for a violent crime; I'm a sterotyped minority. Things like these do not help my cause trying to convince other causes are we not all bad.
The reproduction comment to me is more a fantasy than a need to continue breeding because I can. I have one daughter I love to bits and I struggle enough just to keep her happy. So why fantasize about breeding other women?
Since the beginning of time men seemlying are put on earth to do reproduce with females and dominate their land. Nowadays we see more and more female soldiers fighting for their beliefs so again the gender roles are slowly melting into each other or swapping.
Maybe this is the reason why I hate other people's kids.
It seems as soon as we can talk we have this image of what the world expects us to be. They tell us we can be anyone we want to be... And then when we tell them we want to play with the opposite sex's toys or god forbid change our gender, they tell us what can do that. Another reason why blogs like mine are important. Do what you want, regardless if I or anyone else approves. Do what makes you happy.
I'm a fucking unicorn that likes wine. And cocaine.
Next.
In fact I'm going to lastly cover:
- A woman’s value is mainly determined by her fertility and beauty. A man’s value is mainly determined by his resources, intellect, and character.
And also I'm going round in circles.
Another week gone and I'm giving up writing this. I think I'm generally just fed up of what life tells me to be. I dunno about how you guys feel about this.
Thursday, 7 November 2013
Why 10 year old virtual girl is the future of trapping kiddie fiddlers
I personally hate kids.
I dunno if it's depression or asperger's but I generally feel that some adults use them as excuses not to allow others from the freedoms of being adult. The same reason I dislike deeper Christians than I am. I believe in Jesus Christ but I also believe in living for today. Leave me the fuck alone.
Some parents seem to have this installation in place where they feel they have children and need to protect them even when they are NOT around nor should they BE allowed.
Perfect example is Facebook. Pretty sure that site is designed for mature young teens to adults. People moan that their kids should not be subjected to such posts however I for one NEEDS my daughter one day to see sad and shocking posts. Not everyone on planet earth want to see world peace and happiness. Some people are just simply evil. And I'm not talking about people who dress like terrorists for Halloween (I think that's funny) I'm taking about dictatorship that keeps people from believing whatever they want to believe. My daughter needs to know some people are cunts and they may use get to get their kicks whether it being for abuse... Or worse.
The importance of the video link below is crucial to make sure we minimise child trafficking. I love the idea of creating virtual little girls to catch these truly EVIL men. And that's another thing, it's mostly men I dislike. Some of these predators are not only disgusting in what they do but also everything to they do in this video. Disgusting fat make bodies and the filth that they type. If that was my daughter they said those things to... I would not be writing this blog, I'd be researching. I'd be looking for them. You may never read another blog from me again.
I wonder why virtual jail bait so to speak isn't a more world wide thing. I could image it wouldn't cost as much as the video guys mentioned and nor do I know why they need so much money. My concern with asking governments to 'tip the waiter' is government funding of projects such as these, radical ways of improving lives is we the people have no idea how corrupt certain government figures could be. Or dread to imagine.
Understand: not ALL governments and politics are corrupt. I just feel these kinds of things would be better policed by SENSIBLE VOLUNTEERS and monitored by politicians that the public trust to a point. Possibly crowd funded? I'm thinking of the pedofiles are finding these disgusting sites then maybe we should fight for with fire.
Another great of mine is this could be Kony 2012 all over again.
The road to hell or madness it seems is paid by good intentions as I recall the guy who set this goal up, to have imprisoned one of the world's most dangerous dictator and General to his own child army. As I recall the guy got his wish faster than anyone ever imagined and Kony was caught and imprisoned . However was the cost of the loss of the man's mental health and public scrutiny worth calling out such a wanted man?
However these guys are who have set this video below up seem to be more light footed than last year's Kony project. No faces are received, the only information we are told are they did all this in a warehouse in Holland. We are told.
So here is the link and blog for you to judge for yourselves.
http://www.upworthy.com/watch-what-this-make-believe-girl-means-to-1000-pedophiles?c=ufb1
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
Jesus Take The Wheel: Why Losing Everything Was A Blessing For An Depressed Male
I'm sat in Simple Bar in Northern Quarter eating sliders (I think that's what the Americans call it) and I'm fucking happy. A word I don't use often in this blog, nor it's predictor.
I've been writing blogs since training at drama school and normally writing isn't really meant to be feel good outlet. Normally, as I dip my burger into tomato sauce and forget my point briefly my writing has no direction other than I just hopes someone sends me a hug and loves me for who I am.
Of late, like last night Monday... I've been looking to take an new direction and style to make me as Jamie Foxx annoying put it 'current'. Personally I say I don't give a shit about being current but part of me wants to keep an audience rather than disappear into the abyss known as out of work actor.
So... The rebranding of this blog was needed for that and another reason... YOU.
You the reader clearly feel similar to how I feel. Alone. Uncared for by most, disrespected by others. Sometimes hoping you are the one who gets ran over, slips falls and then falls asleep in death. An freak that cannot be accepted for being different.
That's why this blog is called the black sheep brigade. It's no longer JUST about me, it's about us. As Tim Ferriss it, calling each other up NOT to be that 'fat guy in the BMW', rich in life but bored and depressed in character. Don't worry, Not going to get you to shout 'you are mad as hell and you're not going to take this anymore' but together we are going to add a majority accept we are an minority, TOGETHER. I love you for being different and I know you love me for giving less fucks than the average bear. So as my business plan is approved and I embark on this road of adventure I ask of you to believe in one thing when you read these blogs: In Fox... We trust.
As an arsenal fan I have not trusted the board or the manager. Even wanting both to leave. But after the marquee signing of midfield creative Ozil, spending nearly ten years paying for the debt by building up and selling or best players and currently being top of the premiership in an crucial year where (I believe) our biggest enemy's in Manchester United manager has retired and replaced now seems like the season to push for an higher glory. Maybe not the premiership but after waiting so long, I hope this is the year we do something we the fans will never forget. Something good for once.
Like these chips. Which are good but now cold due to my timing to work... Nah... This isn't work. Not in the normal sense. This is something else. Completely different from three years ago. I wish I could tell you it was three years to the day that I went to see which is now known to me as 'The Scottish Play' and my mum called me to tell me get stomach cancer is getting worse. As literary romantic as that sounds 1: I don't mark events like that, datewise and 2: I don't know what date that was anyway. When the emotional pain really kicked into 5th gear. I wonder if God had a plan then. I used to fancy Carrie Underwood until I found out she's an huge Christian. Of course being from an Christian family myself, nothing wrong with that but I still do the most sinful things that would make her blush, pray for me and then dump me. Put it this way: I don't believe in sex after marriage. Shit, nigga spent most my life from a single parent background, I don't believe in marriage, FULL STOP. Yeah death do us part is buyable but the whole love forever thing, naaaaah. During this time of 'undying love' for Underwood she released an single called 'Jesus Take The Wheel'. An number of other artists have released an single by the same name including one of my favourite rappers 'Noriega' going through his own rebranding of his own name. What he's changed it to, I've forgot. Jesus taking the wheel is a phrase that doesn't need much translation in meaning. I remember one pissed up new year's eve in Worksop when the London boys came to visit one of the mates (who had my best friend in the car with him) was telling us sat around pissed up and some drugged up out of our minds on cocaine how he and my mate were pissed up and drugged up out of their minds on cocaine were driving the car in an empty wet car park. Upon doing some kind of turn, he lost control of the car and him turning to my best mate taking his hands off the steering wheel and saying 'I've lost control'.
Sitting in an empty theatre having to cancel my directing debut and admitting I've lost control of most to all situations in my life was a bitter pill to swallow. I've always known since I started training that I am different, handsome and confident enough to be a game changer. But my problem was holding onto the steering wheel and trying to control the damage. Same thing after graduation and moving back to Worksop and trying to do work which was too high a jump at the time. Same thing I have been trying to do since moving back to Manchester and having to lose two father figures, my granddad and my step-dad in the space of two weeks.
I refused to let Jesus take the wheel. Even telling him to fuck off. Literally. After losing Fluttershy after her father was on his death bed, I felt cursed. This is the same year I lost 2 of my dads, that was the last straw. I spat my dummy out and declared myself atheist.
Fast forward to this morning, having an business plan in mind and an attack strategy in my mind, I parked my bike outside of my business meeting, got in the lift and surprised myself - I prayed. "Lord, what ever plan you have in store for me... I'll accept it. In Jesus name, amen." I finally think I've allowed Jesus to take the wheel. And so far the result is I am now officially self employed and I can sign off from Job Seekers from Thursday but I need to make deliveries and things to do so could use the money a-sap.
So I'm back as a Christian, letting Jesus take the wheel when things get out of my hands. I have my strength but God has vision of the future. If the store and blog fails, then it fails. But knowing I gave it my best shot, I could be able to accept that. Maybe rebrand.
So if you're down with God or not, I need you to trust me and the direction this blog and these companies (The Sindicate umbrella). And I'll trust you as much as I can. Trust. And whenever the other needs to take control of the BMW's steering, so be it.
But this is the start of an new journey. And I'm ready for it. Hope you are as well.
I've been writing blogs since training at drama school and normally writing isn't really meant to be feel good outlet. Normally, as I dip my burger into tomato sauce and forget my point briefly my writing has no direction other than I just hopes someone sends me a hug and loves me for who I am.
Of late, like last night Monday... I've been looking to take an new direction and style to make me as Jamie Foxx annoying put it 'current'. Personally I say I don't give a shit about being current but part of me wants to keep an audience rather than disappear into the abyss known as out of work actor.
So... The rebranding of this blog was needed for that and another reason... YOU.
You the reader clearly feel similar to how I feel. Alone. Uncared for by most, disrespected by others. Sometimes hoping you are the one who gets ran over, slips falls and then falls asleep in death. An freak that cannot be accepted for being different.
That's why this blog is called the black sheep brigade. It's no longer JUST about me, it's about us. As Tim Ferriss it, calling each other up NOT to be that 'fat guy in the BMW', rich in life but bored and depressed in character. Don't worry, Not going to get you to shout 'you are mad as hell and you're not going to take this anymore' but together we are going to add a majority accept we are an minority, TOGETHER. I love you for being different and I know you love me for giving less fucks than the average bear. So as my business plan is approved and I embark on this road of adventure I ask of you to believe in one thing when you read these blogs: In Fox... We trust.
As an arsenal fan I have not trusted the board or the manager. Even wanting both to leave. But after the marquee signing of midfield creative Ozil, spending nearly ten years paying for the debt by building up and selling or best players and currently being top of the premiership in an crucial year where (I believe) our biggest enemy's in Manchester United manager has retired and replaced now seems like the season to push for an higher glory. Maybe not the premiership but after waiting so long, I hope this is the year we do something we the fans will never forget. Something good for once.
Like these chips. Which are good but now cold due to my timing to work... Nah... This isn't work. Not in the normal sense. This is something else. Completely different from three years ago. I wish I could tell you it was three years to the day that I went to see which is now known to me as 'The Scottish Play' and my mum called me to tell me get stomach cancer is getting worse. As literary romantic as that sounds 1: I don't mark events like that, datewise and 2: I don't know what date that was anyway. When the emotional pain really kicked into 5th gear. I wonder if God had a plan then. I used to fancy Carrie Underwood until I found out she's an huge Christian. Of course being from an Christian family myself, nothing wrong with that but I still do the most sinful things that would make her blush, pray for me and then dump me. Put it this way: I don't believe in sex after marriage. Shit, nigga spent most my life from a single parent background, I don't believe in marriage, FULL STOP. Yeah death do us part is buyable but the whole love forever thing, naaaaah. During this time of 'undying love' for Underwood she released an single called 'Jesus Take The Wheel'. An number of other artists have released an single by the same name including one of my favourite rappers 'Noriega' going through his own rebranding of his own name. What he's changed it to, I've forgot. Jesus taking the wheel is a phrase that doesn't need much translation in meaning. I remember one pissed up new year's eve in Worksop when the London boys came to visit one of the mates (who had my best friend in the car with him) was telling us sat around pissed up and some drugged up out of our minds on cocaine how he and my mate were pissed up and drugged up out of their minds on cocaine were driving the car in an empty wet car park. Upon doing some kind of turn, he lost control of the car and him turning to my best mate taking his hands off the steering wheel and saying 'I've lost control'.
Sitting in an empty theatre having to cancel my directing debut and admitting I've lost control of most to all situations in my life was a bitter pill to swallow. I've always known since I started training that I am different, handsome and confident enough to be a game changer. But my problem was holding onto the steering wheel and trying to control the damage. Same thing after graduation and moving back to Worksop and trying to do work which was too high a jump at the time. Same thing I have been trying to do since moving back to Manchester and having to lose two father figures, my granddad and my step-dad in the space of two weeks.
I refused to let Jesus take the wheel. Even telling him to fuck off. Literally. After losing Fluttershy after her father was on his death bed, I felt cursed. This is the same year I lost 2 of my dads, that was the last straw. I spat my dummy out and declared myself atheist.
Fast forward to this morning, having an business plan in mind and an attack strategy in my mind, I parked my bike outside of my business meeting, got in the lift and surprised myself - I prayed. "Lord, what ever plan you have in store for me... I'll accept it. In Jesus name, amen." I finally think I've allowed Jesus to take the wheel. And so far the result is I am now officially self employed and I can sign off from Job Seekers from Thursday but I need to make deliveries and things to do so could use the money a-sap.
So I'm back as a Christian, letting Jesus take the wheel when things get out of my hands. I have my strength but God has vision of the future. If the store and blog fails, then it fails. But knowing I gave it my best shot, I could be able to accept that. Maybe rebrand.
So if you're down with God or not, I need you to trust me and the direction this blog and these companies (The Sindicate umbrella). And I'll trust you as much as I can. Trust. And whenever the other needs to take control of the BMW's steering, so be it.
But this is the start of an new journey. And I'm ready for it. Hope you are as well.
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
My Fears For Darren Young and why we may NEVER totally 'okay' gays or/and the tran community
Well, here we are again. The down from the high yesterday.
Person now which I'll go in to deeper details in the other blog, I'm closing in on being self employed and living the non conformist life style. This of course comes with huge costs and did advantages as well as its strengths. It comes with the territory of non conformity. Being an polyamorous straight self employed asperger's syndrome black brony, I've writing my own destiny, for now. It may last for a few years, it may last three great of my life. One thing is for sure, the way of life society expects me to live, I'm done with. And I'm so far happy with my decision.
Darren young, another young black man also happy with his decision to public announce he is gay has automatically made him my new hero.
Allow me to repeat this: I PROUDLY SUPPORT GAY AND TRANSSEXUAL RIGHTS. ANY SEXUAL TERMS OR INSULTS WE BANTER OR USED AS EMPTY INSULTS NOT DIRECTLY AIMED O INSULT EITHER COMMUNITIES.
The sudden rise of gay athletes is amazing and an sign of an bright future I am excited to be a part.
However, I found this morning and over the past few weeks that even though as person I do accept others I do often find myself trapped in automatic closed minded-ness.
L
Let's talk in 'rasstling' kayabe sense. Darren Young before his historic announcement was an HEEL, an wrestling bad guy so to speak. He comes out and turns almost instantly face. Admittedly I have an issue with this. Although I'm not sure why.
Two years ago CM PUNK then heel did an extremely honest shoot (monologue, if you will) about the state of the WWE and how it treats every other wrestler apart from its golden goose, former WWE champion, John Cena. CM Punk is quoted in saying he would like to believe 'the company would be better once (wwe chairman Vince McMann) is dead but then it be taken over by his stupid daughter and his son in law, (part time but once full time legend Triple H). He was automatically fired.
Later we found out it was a 'work' (working of an angle. A part of the story telling. Normally for an wrestling feud) but the statement in my mind has always been clear: speak out against the system
And the system will destroy you. Ask DMX or YouTube search his poem about 'The industry'. Also Google where DMX is now.
What Darren young did was amazing, no doubt. But my fear is somewhere, someone at titan towers... Doesn't like it. Maybe they don't like it to the point where Darren disappears off our screens for awhile. The wrestling industry is notoriously traditional in it's way of thinking or life. Th chairman Vince is well known for being bias against smaller fatter wrestlers in favour of Greek mythology like bodies. Sexuality in the past has rarely been mentioned although gay wrestlers in the past have been afraid to voice their beliefs. Until now.
Darren spoke about now being the right time. But why then off an airplane, no press conference and seemingly unscripted? An rebellious work? Doubtful.
I personally can't help but feel Russia 2014 winter Olympics plays a roll.
Darren is (I believe) the third sports athlete to come out this year. Jason Collins and Robbie Rogers are the others. There of course seems to be a lot of people not wanting the winter olympics to happen at all. Although I am not one of them. I personally would like to see this MOTIVATE the gay and trans athletes in to winning more and pushing themselves more to the limit than ever.
I have been deeply sadden by the aggression Russia has shown to the GBLT community. The the hight of my sadness being Anton Krasovsky, an respected Russia News Anchor coming out LIVE on TV and intermediately being fired. An career, gone. Because of his right to be free.
I, find myself running into bigots often. Getting hate mail about my views on gay and tran people, questioning my own sexuality. I tend to throw a small bit of resistance up, repeat that I am an straight male 'despite' being tran-friendly and then annoy the hate and block if need be.
Even as a brony, I often run into hateful people.
You would think that would be the point. Everyone coming together to fight a good fight for an good cause. But no. It's not cool to talk about ponies. Ever. Yet it's fine to thumbs up the actions of the idiots on Geordie/Jersey Shores and other trash TV.
God knows I try to be pony like but some people in the world make it extremely hard for me to stay so. Sadly I confess to counter trolling to trolling of my own. The trolls say one of my good friends have lips like 'an tranny' and how much they wanna fuck her (real smooth calling her an tranny, btw. Again, I support trans but I know what the implement was) I'd half say this is illness based but then again if I was ill I'd like to think I'd still do the same or intelligently counter.
My fear with Darren Young is the WWE catapult him to heights he may not be able to cope with. With all due respect to Darren, I don't see him as an upper card. I'm not sure he does, either. Him being happy I took as an general comment and being apart of the Prime Time Players stable for over 3 years the evidence would suggest that.
I hope WWE use Darren how he was treated before and not try to use his sexuality as an angle or an way to heighten his career if he is not comfortable in that situation.
Because at the end of the day if we CANNOT accept bronies, the future for GLBT community, racial, religious and people afraid to be themselves are probably not safe either. It's an fucking shame we live in the 21st century and we still have to fight for our right to be free to express ourselves the way we wish to.
Person now which I'll go in to deeper details in the other blog, I'm closing in on being self employed and living the non conformist life style. This of course comes with huge costs and did advantages as well as its strengths. It comes with the territory of non conformity. Being an polyamorous straight self employed asperger's syndrome black brony, I've writing my own destiny, for now. It may last for a few years, it may last three great of my life. One thing is for sure, the way of life society expects me to live, I'm done with. And I'm so far happy with my decision.
Darren young, another young black man also happy with his decision to public announce he is gay has automatically made him my new hero.
Allow me to repeat this: I PROUDLY SUPPORT GAY AND TRANSSEXUAL RIGHTS. ANY SEXUAL TERMS OR INSULTS WE BANTER OR USED AS EMPTY INSULTS NOT DIRECTLY AIMED O INSULT EITHER COMMUNITIES.
The sudden rise of gay athletes is amazing and an sign of an bright future I am excited to be a part.
However, I found this morning and over the past few weeks that even though as person I do accept others I do often find myself trapped in automatic closed minded-ness.
L
Let's talk in 'rasstling' kayabe sense. Darren Young before his historic announcement was an HEEL, an wrestling bad guy so to speak. He comes out and turns almost instantly face. Admittedly I have an issue with this. Although I'm not sure why.
Two years ago CM PUNK then heel did an extremely honest shoot (monologue, if you will) about the state of the WWE and how it treats every other wrestler apart from its golden goose, former WWE champion, John Cena. CM Punk is quoted in saying he would like to believe 'the company would be better once (wwe chairman Vince McMann) is dead but then it be taken over by his stupid daughter and his son in law, (part time but once full time legend Triple H). He was automatically fired.
Later we found out it was a 'work' (working of an angle. A part of the story telling. Normally for an wrestling feud) but the statement in my mind has always been clear: speak out against the system
And the system will destroy you. Ask DMX or YouTube search his poem about 'The industry'. Also Google where DMX is now.
What Darren young did was amazing, no doubt. But my fear is somewhere, someone at titan towers... Doesn't like it. Maybe they don't like it to the point where Darren disappears off our screens for awhile. The wrestling industry is notoriously traditional in it's way of thinking or life. Th chairman Vince is well known for being bias against smaller fatter wrestlers in favour of Greek mythology like bodies. Sexuality in the past has rarely been mentioned although gay wrestlers in the past have been afraid to voice their beliefs. Until now.
Darren spoke about now being the right time. But why then off an airplane, no press conference and seemingly unscripted? An rebellious work? Doubtful.
I personally can't help but feel Russia 2014 winter Olympics plays a roll.
Darren is (I believe) the third sports athlete to come out this year. Jason Collins and Robbie Rogers are the others. There of course seems to be a lot of people not wanting the winter olympics to happen at all. Although I am not one of them. I personally would like to see this MOTIVATE the gay and trans athletes in to winning more and pushing themselves more to the limit than ever.
I have been deeply sadden by the aggression Russia has shown to the GBLT community. The the hight of my sadness being Anton Krasovsky, an respected Russia News Anchor coming out LIVE on TV and intermediately being fired. An career, gone. Because of his right to be free.
I, find myself running into bigots often. Getting hate mail about my views on gay and tran people, questioning my own sexuality. I tend to throw a small bit of resistance up, repeat that I am an straight male 'despite' being tran-friendly and then annoy the hate and block if need be.
Even as a brony, I often run into hateful people.
You would think that would be the point. Everyone coming together to fight a good fight for an good cause. But no. It's not cool to talk about ponies. Ever. Yet it's fine to thumbs up the actions of the idiots on Geordie/Jersey Shores and other trash TV.
God knows I try to be pony like but some people in the world make it extremely hard for me to stay so. Sadly I confess to counter trolling to trolling of my own. The trolls say one of my good friends have lips like 'an tranny' and how much they wanna fuck her (real smooth calling her an tranny, btw. Again, I support trans but I know what the implement was) I'd half say this is illness based but then again if I was ill I'd like to think I'd still do the same or intelligently counter.
My fear with Darren Young is the WWE catapult him to heights he may not be able to cope with. With all due respect to Darren, I don't see him as an upper card. I'm not sure he does, either. Him being happy I took as an general comment and being apart of the Prime Time Players stable for over 3 years the evidence would suggest that.
I hope WWE use Darren how he was treated before and not try to use his sexuality as an angle or an way to heighten his career if he is not comfortable in that situation.
Because at the end of the day if we CANNOT accept bronies, the future for GLBT community, racial, religious and people afraid to be themselves are probably not safe either. It's an fucking shame we live in the 21st century and we still have to fight for our right to be free to express ourselves the way we wish to.
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