Trolling For Good and why I troll some people

Had some bad news today. I've missed most of today after over sleeping.

The news may have been an reason for or the fact yesterday was too awesome and I needed to sleep, dream and THEN pinch myself in my dreams to wake up to realise this is me. I am now a businessman doing what I love. Hoping to colab and work with people who as Donna from ClickClickBang says 'Gets it'.

Something that also cheers me up is trolling people WHO DESERVE TO BE TROLLED.

In my mind the people who deserve it are:

• Airhead closed minded WAGS
• Reality Tv 'Celebrities'
• Under 21 year old trolls
• Bullies
• People with politicial beliefs which endanger the rights of people who want to change their lives for the good (Eg, legal immigrants, transgender people, homosexuals)
• People with serious racist beliefs

The British National Party are, let's see... (Possibly) One, DEFINITELY one, two, three... FOUR of the above. I 'like' them on facebook and follow them on twitter for the simple reason. I luuuuuuuuuuuurve to troll them.

Am I a bully for trolling them? You goddamn right I am. And PROUD.
Coming from Worksop, a right wing working class town in Nottinghamshire England I've spent half of my life being racial abused and seeing my gay and lesbian friends bullied to hell. There's only so much hatred you can take without hating back. My real life response to aggressive racial, sexual abuse? Laugh, counter troll and embarrass anyway I can. Being called a 'nigger', 'black bastard' (which is only half true. I have three dads. One bio, two step. Suck it) is not only stating the obvious but a badge I wear with pride. I'M BLACK AND I'M PROUD! Race is such an obvious abuse card to play. Honestly. I don't really understand why people find it offensive. I find it comical that people's insults game is so below par that they HAVE to cuss you for the most obvious thing about you. It's like calling someone big nose.

So watching the new 'Mandela: Long Walk To Freedom' film trailer (I NEED to read this book!!) I noticed someone disliked the video. I was going comment saying I bet it's the English Defence League supporter but checking my research, black rights in South Afrika isn't their style. You tend to find somewhere in the UK there's always a fall back racist group to fall back on if the other one doesn't believe in sending an group of people back to... Somewhere. Do they even know? Do they think effiinic minorities come from factories? That should be a thing:

the nigger factory .co.jp WE MAKE COONS QUICKLY QUICKLY GOOD. YOU NO HAPPY?! YOU SEND BACK!! WE REFER YOU TO OUR FRIENDS!!

the faggot makers inc. com Yiiiissir! We make the fiiiiiiinest shirt lifters you've ever seen in your goddamn life! If not, send 'em back to us and receive free 'sorry cake'! That err cake that says on top 'Sorry we sent you a bad fag. :( Eat me!'

So having research run ins with the BNP before and liking them on facebook... I came across the picture on the left... My comment is the last one on the right.

Jesus Take The Wheel: Why Losing Everything Was A Blessing For An Depressed Male

I'm sat in Simple Bar in Northern Quarter eating sliders (I think that's what the Americans call it) and I'm fucking happy. A word I don't use often in this blog, nor it's predictor.

I've been writing blogs since training at drama school and normally writing isn't really meant to be feel good outlet. Normally, as I dip my burger into tomato sauce and forget my point briefly my writing has no direction other than I just hopes someone sends me a hug and loves me for who I am.
Of late, like last night Monday... I've been looking to take an new direction and style to make me as Jamie Foxx annoying put it 'current'. Personally I say I don't give a shit about being current but part of me wants to keep an audience rather than disappear into the abyss known as out of work actor.
So... The rebranding of this blog was needed for that and another reason... YOU.
You the reader clearly feel similar to how I feel. Alone. Uncared for by most, disrespected by others. Sometimes hoping you are the one who gets ran over, slips falls and then falls asleep in death. An freak that cannot be accepted for being different.
That's why this blog is called the black sheep brigade. It's no longer JUST about me, it's about us. As Tim Ferriss it, calling each other up NOT to be that 'fat guy in the BMW', rich in life but bored and depressed in character. Don't worry, Not going to get you to shout 'you are mad as hell and you're not going to take this anymore' but together we are going to add a majority accept we are an minority, TOGETHER. I love you for being different and I know you love me for giving less fucks than the average bear. So as my business plan is approved and I embark on this road of adventure I ask of you to believe in one thing when you read these blogs: In Fox... We trust.

As an arsenal fan I have not trusted the board or the manager. Even wanting both to leave. But after the marquee signing of midfield creative Ozil, spending nearly ten years paying for the debt by building up and selling or best players and currently being top of the premiership in an crucial year where (I believe) our biggest enemy's in Manchester United manager has retired and replaced now seems like the season to push for an higher glory. Maybe not the premiership but after waiting so long, I hope this is the year we do something we the fans will never forget. Something good for once.

Like these chips. Which are good but now cold due to my timing to work... Nah... This isn't work. Not in the normal sense. This is something else. Completely different from three years ago. I wish I could tell you it was three years to the day that I went to see which is now known to me as 'The Scottish Play' and my mum called me to tell me get stomach cancer is getting worse. As literary romantic as that sounds 1: I don't mark events like that, datewise and 2: I don't know what date that was anyway. When the emotional pain really kicked into 5th gear. I wonder if God had a plan then. I used to fancy Carrie Underwood until I found out she's an huge Christian. Of course being from an Christian family myself, nothing wrong with that but I still do the most sinful things that would make her blush, pray for me and then dump me. Put it this way: I don't believe in sex after marriage. Shit, nigga spent most my life from a single parent background, I don't believe in marriage, FULL STOP. Yeah death do us part is buyable but the whole love forever thing, naaaaah. During this time of 'undying love' for Underwood she released an single called 'Jesus Take The Wheel'. An number of other artists have released an single by the same name including one of my favourite rappers 'Noriega' going through his own rebranding of his own name. What he's changed it to, I've forgot. Jesus taking the wheel is a phrase that doesn't need much translation in meaning. I remember one pissed up new year's eve in Worksop when the London boys came to visit one of the mates (who had my best friend in the car with him) was telling us sat around pissed up and some drugged up out of our minds on cocaine how he and my mate were pissed up and drugged up out of their minds on cocaine were driving the car in an empty wet car park. Upon doing some kind of turn, he lost control of the car and him turning to my best mate taking his hands off the steering wheel and saying 'I've lost control'.
Sitting in an empty theatre having to cancel my directing debut and admitting I've lost control of most to all situations in my life was a bitter pill to swallow. I've always known since I started training that I am different, handsome and confident enough to be a game changer. But my problem was holding onto the steering wheel and trying to control the damage. Same thing after graduation and moving back to Worksop and trying to do work which was too high a jump at the time. Same thing I have been trying to do since moving back to Manchester and having to lose two father figures, my granddad and my step-dad in the space of two weeks.
I refused to let Jesus take the wheel. Even telling him to fuck off. Literally. After losing Fluttershy after her father was on his death bed, I felt cursed. This is the same year I lost 2 of my dads, that was the last straw. I spat my dummy out and declared myself atheist.
Fast forward to this morning, having an business plan in mind and an attack strategy in my mind, I parked my bike outside of my business meeting, got in the lift and surprised myself - I prayed. "Lord, what ever plan you have in store for me... I'll accept it. In Jesus name, amen." I finally think I've allowed Jesus to take the wheel. And so far the result is I am now officially self employed and I can sign off from Job Seekers from Thursday but I need to make deliveries and things to do so could use the money a-sap.

So I'm back as a Christian, letting Jesus take the wheel when things get out of my hands. I have my strength but God has vision of the future. If the store and blog fails, then it fails. But knowing I gave it my best shot, I could be able to accept that. Maybe rebrand.


So if you're down with God or not, I need you to trust me and the direction this blog and these companies (The Sindicate umbrella). And I'll trust you as much as I can. Trust. And whenever the other needs to take control of the BMW's steering, so be it.
But this is the start of an new journey. And I'm ready for it. Hope you are as well.

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My Fears For Darren Young and why we may NEVER totally 'okay' gays or/and the tran community

Well, here we are again. The down from the high yesterday.
Person now which I'll go in to deeper details in the other blog, I'm closing in on being self employed and living the non conformist life style. This of course comes with huge costs and did advantages as well as its strengths. It comes with the territory of non conformity. Being an polyamorous straight self employed asperger's syndrome black brony, I've writing my own destiny, for now. It may last for a few years, it may last three great of my life. One thing is for sure, the way of life society expects me to live, I'm done with. And I'm so far happy with my decision.
Darren young, another young black man also happy with his decision to public announce he is gay has automatically made him my new hero.
Allow me to repeat this: I PROUDLY SUPPORT GAY AND TRANSSEXUAL RIGHTS. ANY SEXUAL TERMS OR INSULTS WE BANTER OR USED AS EMPTY INSULTS NOT DIRECTLY AIMED O INSULT EITHER COMMUNITIES.
The sudden rise of gay athletes is amazing and an sign of an bright future I am excited to be a part.
However, I found this morning and over the past few weeks that even though as person I do accept others I do often find myself trapped in automatic closed minded-ness.
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Let's talk in 'rasstling' kayabe sense. Darren Young before his historic announcement was an HEEL, an wrestling bad guy so to speak. He comes out and turns almost instantly face. Admittedly I have an issue with this. Although I'm not sure why.
Two years ago CM PUNK then heel did an extremely honest shoot (monologue, if you will) about the state of the WWE and how it treats every other wrestler apart from its golden goose, former WWE champion, John Cena. CM Punk is quoted in saying he would like to believe 'the company would be better once (wwe chairman Vince McMann) is dead but then it be taken over by his stupid daughter and his son in law, (part time but once full time legend Triple H). He was automatically fired.
Later we found out it was a 'work' (working of an angle. A part of the story telling. Normally for an wrestling feud) but the statement in my mind has always been clear: speak out against the system
And the system will destroy you. Ask DMX or YouTube search his poem about 'The industry'. Also Google where DMX is now.
What Darren young did was amazing, no doubt. But my fear is somewhere, someone at titan towers... Doesn't like it. Maybe they don't like it to the point where Darren disappears off our screens for awhile. The wrestling industry is notoriously traditional in it's way of thinking or life. Th chairman Vince is well known for being bias against smaller fatter wrestlers in favour of Greek mythology like bodies. Sexuality in the past has rarely been mentioned although gay wrestlers in the past have been afraid to voice their beliefs. Until now.
Darren spoke about now being the right time. But why then off an airplane, no press conference and seemingly unscripted? An rebellious work? Doubtful.
I personally can't help but feel Russia 2014 winter Olympics plays a roll.
Darren is (I believe) the third sports athlete to come out this year. Jason Collins and Robbie Rogers are the others. There of course seems to be a lot of people not wanting the winter olympics to happen at all. Although I am not one of them. I personally would like to see this MOTIVATE the gay and trans athletes in to winning more and pushing themselves more to the limit than ever.
I have been deeply sadden by the aggression Russia has shown to the GBLT community. The the hight of my sadness being Anton Krasovsky, an respected Russia News Anchor coming out LIVE on TV and intermediately being fired. An career, gone. Because of his right to be free.
I, find myself running into bigots often. Getting hate mail about my views on gay and tran people, questioning my own sexuality. I tend to throw a small bit of resistance up, repeat that I am an straight male 'despite' being tran-friendly and then annoy the hate and block if need be.
Even as a brony, I often run into hateful people.

You would think that would be the point. Everyone coming together to fight a good fight for an good cause. But no. It's not cool to talk about ponies. Ever. Yet it's fine to thumbs up the actions of the idiots on Geordie/Jersey Shores and other trash TV.
God knows I try to be pony like but some people in the world make it extremely hard for me to stay so. Sadly I confess to counter trolling to trolling of my own. The trolls say one of my good friends have lips like 'an tranny' and how much they wanna fuck her (real smooth calling her an tranny, btw. Again, I support trans but I know what the implement was) I'd half say this is illness based but then again if I was ill I'd like to think I'd still do the same or intelligently counter.
My fear with Darren Young is the WWE catapult him to heights he may not be able to cope with. With all due respect to Darren, I don't see him as an upper card. I'm not sure he does, either. Him being happy I took as an general comment and being apart of the Prime Time Players stable for over 3 years the evidence would suggest that.
I hope WWE use Darren how he was treated before and not try to use his sexuality as an angle or an way to heighten his career if he is not comfortable in that situation.
Because at the end of the day if we CANNOT accept bronies, the future for GLBT community, racial, religious and people afraid to be themselves are probably not safe either. It's an fucking shame we live in the 21st century and we still have to fight for our right to be free to express ourselves the way we wish to.

Next Gen Consoles = THE DEATH OF CoD?!

It's hard to believe the Xbox 360 is almost as old as my daughter.

Then again it's hard to believe if I want to in a year's time I can have my pancreas removed. So much as changed since 2005. Such high lights include receding hair, being out of the 20-30 category in questionnaires and beginning to read books about growing plants and what to eat to avoid high cholesterol.

One thing that has not changed is my LOVE for video games and all what is nerdy. Seriously. My clothes will drop off if I have an back and forth conversation with an woman who knows her rpgs from her mobas.
During my time at drama school my time playing video games and spending time with my then girl friend were mutually exclusive. Some time for me meant popping into my bedroom while she watched her soaps and I played PES 3.

My God, that game was the shit.
To THIS day I still can remember the epic battle I would have with hardest level cpu opposition. I remember losing an game in Europe 5-0 one leg, walking away from my PlayStation 2 before I smash the son of a bitch and new DVD drive and then coming back next leg to win 7-5. To THIS day, I've never had such an epic come back.

Sadly come back was the thing that happen when the Xbox 360 was released in Europe in 2005.
I remember being PES 6 hoping for an similar experience that made me act like an crack addict who smoked a pipe and then took sleeping pills after wards.

Sadly as kinda fun as that game was it didn't have the team name, stadiums or even the option to edit the squads in the game. The only fun that was to be had was in the game's master league mode which since new gen, now current gen in my mind seems to have got worst and worst.

Converting current gen favourites in to Next gen gaming is an simple concept but rarely one that is lasts both generations for long. Even the one mighty skate board games such as Tony Hawk's have failed to keep last gen's audience sniffing glue, smoking pot and eating munchies while nodding one's head like one of those plastic dogs in moving cars to the status excellent THPS sound tracks.

Interestingly enough Activision's current golden goose seems about to suffer from the same fate.

Call Of Duty: Ghosts is the tenth game in the game's franchise and frankly possibly the one with the biggest task on the gf (game's franchise).
But only does it have next gen to cope with (which I'm sure with the game's new engine will ofc handle with easy. That would be the problem) but also the exclusive content contract with Microsoft which the average gamer seems to believe that that's a company that doesn't give an sloppy seconds fuck about the average gamer.
The Xbox one's launch mentioned a lot of things. But what stuck out to three still considered niche market despite the games (such as call of duty modern warfare 2) grossing the highest opening weekend even beating movie history movie openings such as the Harry potter films and even the dark knight's seemingly impossible high box office sales for tactically nuked (see what I did there) the company decided to seemingly deny its company nerd roots and appeal to an larger media based market such as tv and music services.
The phrase that sticks out of my mind from that launch show was "we want this system to be the new water cooler."

I almost immediately put my Xbox 360 for sale.

Another problem CoD has is the overly bad ass it's great Fiercest competitor had become since its announcement at the beginning of this year; Battlefield 4.

Now an quick disclaimer; I am NEITHER an CoD or BF fan boy. If I'm honest, I'm a fan boy of Alice Morgan from Luther, Hayley Williams and Dita Von Tease. But more than that, I am a gamer. With frankly a raging hard on at the mention of Alice and Dita.

Woof.

Every thing from the 12 minutes of footage released with one of my favourite songs as an intro (total eclipse of the heart) from the intense for fights and direction of the scene/footage with the humour and respect which is slowly installed in to the audience... Even the tease of the introduction of female soldier characters had frankly made battlefield 4 scrap with CoD:G one of the most one sided fights I have ever seen in my life.

It's like Rodney King verses the LA police all over again. Spoiler; Rodney gets the shit kicked out of him.

This better advertising campaign had been going on all year. And consider both games are being released late November, CoD fans are being extremely concerned with the little coverage and footage they have seen.

Another reason why I'm worried is an personal one; the fandom itself. You only have to search YouTube for CoD to find childish, trolling, counter trolling our an mixture of the 3.
This fandom is notoriously one of the worst communities in the video game online world. Only league of legends community welcomes 'n00bs' with add much hostility as an old southern central republican American would treat an black family lost and asking for directions.

Thing is with this part of the argument CoD:G is 'fucked. Fucking fucked. Super fucking doomed' is more about parental control and common scene. An essay to discuss its self.

And frankly the fact is the an new series in the franchise with the originators of the franchise WITHOUT its former magic makers.
An huge part of the first CoD' s original appeal was its summer Hollywood block buster mentality. At the time, games wanted to be just that, games.  What the first CoD bought to the table was big budget movie theatrics without condescending it's audience as many of that generation of gaming felt in to the trap of.
With Robert 'Trolling' Bowling leaving infinity ward, Jason West and Vince Zampella leaving, sueing Activision and then setting up 'Respawn Entertainment' with battlefield developers EA taking an LARGE chunk of IW staff with them and how disappointed the community was with modern warfare 3... I feel a little worried of the new breed of IW taking the stage.

Maybe this is an old man's worried. Maybe I should Fuck off back to PES 3 and my commodore amiga.
But on the other hand there seems to be enough writing on the wall to see that this title could be do or die for the 11 year old franchise.

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