I kinda wish the questions were less... Trolly? I dunno. What do you think, guys? Comment below!
Sunday, 5 July 2015
Saturday, 4 July 2015
YOU LOOK DISGUSTING **May Trigger**
We still live in a world obsessed with natural beauty. I think she is beautiful. I think you are beautiful. Be you and be proud.
Tuesday, 9 June 2015
BODY TRANSFORMATION: Eating Disorder - Binging - I...
The Aspie Sheep Brigade : BODY TRANSFORMATION: Eating Disorder - Binging - I...: Hey guys... Evan, here. , here. Been quiet as back on sick leave pay. Really been thinking about where this channel goes from previous posts...
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Monday, 16 February 2015
Why Do We Have Sex: Forwarded Post from NakedWithChanel
Happy belated birthday to me, Evan Makeba (podcast episode coming soon)!
As an birthday present, I would like sex. Wouldn't we all? Just generally like to have sex?
When said like that it seems like such a simple question. However an aspie I have to realize that not everyone thinks like myself. Some people are into the whole boy meets girl, they fall in love, have sex, get married, have baby and have less sex. That's cool.
However they are MILLIONS of other reasons why we have sex. My personal favourites are: Exercise, fun and making me and my partner (AKA right hand, left hand or sex toy) feel great about ourselves.
In an whirlwind TWO MINUTE video former(?) porn star now sex educator Chanel Preston goes through an number of reasons why we like doing the old 'in-out, in-out' as Alex from Clockwork Orange would call it.
If you like what you saw I strongly recommend you guys check her out at her sex-ed blog, here.
As an birthday present, I would like sex. Wouldn't we all? Just generally like to have sex?
When said like that it seems like such a simple question. However an aspie I have to realize that not everyone thinks like myself. Some people are into the whole boy meets girl, they fall in love, have sex, get married, have baby and have less sex. That's cool.
However they are MILLIONS of other reasons why we have sex. My personal favourites are: Exercise, fun and making me and my partner (AKA right hand, left hand or sex toy) feel great about ourselves.
In an whirlwind TWO MINUTE video former(?) porn star now sex educator Chanel Preston goes through an number of reasons why we like doing the old 'in-out, in-out' as Alex from Clockwork Orange would call it.
If you like what you saw I strongly recommend you guys check her out at her sex-ed blog, here.
Thursday, 12 February 2015
The Effects Of An Autistic Public Outburst
Been awhile since I've posted on here because I've been REALLY poorly. So much so I barely go out anymore.
The reason why mostly is because on Thanksgiving of last year I had an public outburst causing under a grand worth of damage and I got arrested for it.
I've been so ashamed I haven't dared leave my flat.
So in order to fight against my anxiety and loneliness I've been focusing my work on my performing art website and working on it's podcast.
I still believe in the Black/Aspie Sheep Brigade message but right now, I'm a mess.
So I thought I would post the first episode on here explaining the struggles I've been dealing with since the incident.
Hope to post something on here soon.
The reason why mostly is because on Thanksgiving of last year I had an public outburst causing under a grand worth of damage and I got arrested for it.
I've been so ashamed I haven't dared leave my flat.
So in order to fight against my anxiety and loneliness I've been focusing my work on my performing art website and working on it's podcast.
I still believe in the Black/Aspie Sheep Brigade message but right now, I'm a mess.
So I thought I would post the first episode on here explaining the struggles I've been dealing with since the incident.
Hope to post something on here soon.
Sunday, 18 January 2015
The Fear Of Cat Calling Or Just Talking To Women On The Street For Aspie Men
ORCHESTRAL SUITE No. 3 in D minor.
Most people know an different arrangement used in the Hamlet cigar adverts. For me it reminds me of an character's brutal death in battle royale. It's so easy to tell the difference between right and wrong. To judge from afar. But sometimes when the chips are down, you've been on a nice winning streak and then disaster happens, most people 'don't want to be a loser anymore'. Sometimes it's better to burn out then to fade away. Some people deserve some time in the sun. Because similar people or even close friends don't get that chance. I love being an aspie. Everything is slowly making sense to me.
Even in the darkest days of self harm and suicidal thoughts... I'm learning about myself everyday and trying to organize myself and get the help needed to do some of the things that I can't or struggle to. Some aspies, you think they are lucky being blessed with wealth like Elliot Rodger but that doesn't change the fact he was extremely angry and frustrated so he went on a killing spree. Did he also kill himself?
Marcus Jannes did.
The 21 year old aspie from Norway hung himself live on webcam. Why? Struggled with social skills. Extremely lonely. I thought about giving you more names linked with aspergers syndrome, low social skills and harm themselves and yes on rare occasions other people but it's normally the self harm, poor socialising and an often mixed bag good and bad social traits. For example:
Most people know an different arrangement used in the Hamlet cigar adverts. For me it reminds me of an character's brutal death in battle royale. It's so easy to tell the difference between right and wrong. To judge from afar. But sometimes when the chips are down, you've been on a nice winning streak and then disaster happens, most people 'don't want to be a loser anymore'. Sometimes it's better to burn out then to fade away. Some people deserve some time in the sun. Because similar people or even close friends don't get that chance. I love being an aspie. Everything is slowly making sense to me.
Even in the darkest days of self harm and suicidal thoughts... I'm learning about myself everyday and trying to organize myself and get the help needed to do some of the things that I can't or struggle to. Some aspies, you think they are lucky being blessed with wealth like Elliot Rodger but that doesn't change the fact he was extremely angry and frustrated so he went on a killing spree. Did he also kill himself?
Marcus Jannes did.
The 21 year old aspie from Norway hung himself live on webcam. Why? Struggled with social skills. Extremely lonely. I thought about giving you more names linked with aspergers syndrome, low social skills and harm themselves and yes on rare occasions other people but it's normally the self harm, poor socialising and an often mixed bag good and bad social traits. For example:
pro - I can be obsessive and passionate about things I like and enjoy, picking random facts out of the air I have practically remembered all my life.
Con - poor organizational skills. This includes time management and random tasks.
And of course, my social skills. Admittedly I'm not as bad as some aspies but I can make groups of people feel uncomfortable and I'm extremely bad with cues in conversations. I remember almost being banned from a group's events because I was that hardcore. I made a decision after that to all but stop going to those events. I feel embarrassed to show my true colours and also I HATE being censored. I just wish some people would know the differences between my jokes and my actual facts. This makes meeting new girls hard enough job as it is but there's an double edged sword with '10 hours being a woman in NYC' trending online.
I keep getting flash backs to clips of pick up artists uploading videos of sexual assault and harassment. But I know there also exists videos of mixed groups of people casually chatting, nicely. Friendly. Why don't these videos ever trend? My fear is this: we are living in a world full of strangers and enemies.
I keep getting flash backs to clips of pick up artists uploading videos of sexual assault and harassment. But I know there also exists videos of mixed groups of people casually chatting, nicely. Friendly. Why don't these videos ever trend? My fear is this: we are living in a world full of strangers and enemies.
I remember an car advertistment featuring a somewhat food chain of traffic and travel: the pedestrian hates the cyclist, the cyclist hates the car drivers and I think if I remember it right EVERYONE hates the truck/lorries. See what I meant about random facts. I'm concerned more education is needed NOW. To understand where people are coming from. Monogamous dislike polyamorous. Polyamorous hate swingers. Swingers (seem to) dislike transgender/gender community. But I'm getting of topic.
I have seen a number of newspapers articles about Twitter wars of the sexes. Lesbians arguing with transgender off the top of my head but one between cis men and a woman made me itch my head. The woman in the 10 hours NYC actually enjoys being cat whistled? I think it's called that. Some women enjoy the attention and so they should. I appreciate a beautiful woman as much as anyone. But I'm terrified about coming across as creepy if I tell them that or similar. I'm very confident and I have certain tastes: women left alone for a bit in a bar/club is like parking a sports car in a ghetto. Sometimes they can get stolen. Often. Or the fear of it. But I didn't proper read the twitter war between the man at the butchers and the food blogger who took offensive being told she 'sounds sexy' on the phone. I guess it's all about content. But that might be the problem. It's not the phrases themselves but the TIMING of those phrases. Sometimes. Which brings me back to my original issue.
I can only pray I make it Crystal clear to the women I speak to the difference between me being nice, me badly flirting or me poking fun with my female friends. I just hope I'm original when chatting online.
Saturday, 27 December 2014
Keyboard Sexist Warriors Vs White Knights: Why being a dick and being as Aspie Man are NOT mutually exclusive
Right off the bat? Happy birthday, Ruby.
It's been a tough time for the love I have for my daughter and I.
Due to 'relationship matters' with adults we haven't been able to hang out as much as I would like.
I would love for us to hang out with family and friends for weekend but it hasn't been possible. Mostly grown ups are to blame. Grown ups fucking suck. But on the flip side my hatred for teenage boys could reach fever pitch at any moment. Then again over the top holier than thou feminists could tempt me to start owning cats.
It's been a funny day going into my daughter's birthday. Family had a huge get together so I mainly hid in my room listening to mental health happy hour (a podcast I highly recommend) and exploring the Guys We Fucked podcast. Guys, This week I did my first ever podcast for my personal blog and I'm hoping it's not long until I do a podcast for this site. So for me the way to learn what I like and can do for others in a podcast depends on what podcasts I listen to and what you guys need in a podcast. The one thing I love about Happy Hour and so far GWF podcast is a similar sense of humour. A reason why I watch, subscribe and bum the fuck out of Watch Girls Play.
One: Humour and cussing. I think they mostly have similar humour and some beliefs that I do.
Two: I find them all attractive. Because I'm vain and visit all women family members, sister, mum, daughter. There are very few men in my life and I doubt I would accept them. Because most men are cunts. These are facts.
Three quickly is playing the games I don't have the balls to play but I need to go back a step. It's the reason why I'm writing this pitch dark at 5 in the morning.
Mankind, I am fucking ANGRY at you.
Listening to GWF and previous posts on here about war of the sexes it's easy to understand why there is such a thing as this war however neither side does anything to calm down the war and tonight... Well that was a super example. I just spend 20 minutes before bed watching properly twitch player Kaceytron and I was horrified at the abuse she was getting in game and in chat.
Now I'm not the type of twitch-er which watching hours on end. I'll watch here and there mainly female streamers. But from what I understand mods are in place, the chat is mostly respectful and friendly. So I'm not sure if this was Troll Thursday or mods were on a coffee break but someone clearly pissed off someone and I started watching slap bang in the middle of a steam voice chat fight. Let's say chat fight in future as it reminds me of cat fight and kind of continues the female linked theme of this post.
As I continue to tell you guys, banter I'm all for. I'm hoping even Happy Hour can back me up on this. Some mother fuckers in the world are too coddamn sensitive. They need Jesus. But the abuse and name calling I heard, maybe it's the father or the literal (only) about the man or even the I love most female non monogamous pervert in me just saw this abuse and it made my blood BOIL. I heard something about sexual acts: listen to me. E-fucking-nough with this men do it, they are awesome women do it they are sluts shit. For real. I'm cunting sick of it. Then again I feel this post should be the random yet fitting end to the Sexes War Trilogy which has hurt my brain for so long. The first two, yes. I'm aspie. I'm awkward and I have no idea how to talk to women. I have to play the Rocky soundtrack to go out and buy milk. I am fucking lonely. But this one? Yes. Of course I'd like to get into a lady's pants as well as her arms as a future result of this post but:
NO WOMEN SHOULS HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF THEIR SEXUALITY OR FEELINGS ABOUT SEX. WHETHER IT'S MONOGAMOUS, NON, NONE OR OTHER.
EVER.
In fact no one should full stop.
I keep thinking of the time I when to a school in a working class town and I was walking with some male friends. Ahead of us was a lesbian school girl (which is a hot phrase I never thought I would type in a serious context) and my mates took it upon themselves to start throwing insults at this girl. I remember saying that everyone should be free to do and choose their own path in life or words to that effect. The girl turned around after I said this. I thought she was going to punch me but she actually offered me a chewing gum. We've been friends for over 20 years now. Actually she is now a he. But I will still support them. Always. Unless he starts supporting Manchester United. Only cunts support Manchester United. Trust me. I'm an arsenal fan.
And I'm pretty sure only cunts would throw sex based insults at women on the internet. Mainly teen aged boys. I don't believe there is any point of throwing insults at girl gamers. As men surely that's one of the things we look for in the ideal life/long term partner. Similar interests. Now I'm not saying Watch Girls Play, Kaceytron, Ssniperwolf shall be in my bedroom naked already beginning the orge because they couldn't wait for my cock but showing those women respect not just for gaming and being pretty female gamers but are they not human beings? I would love to know how many of these abusive men would be abusive in real life?
For my daughter's and my knuckles sake not many and less that she knows them and lesser that I see them. She is getting to an age where she is starting to learn about sex, boys and how it all 'works'. Gross.
But I don't want her to be let down by men. Like I let down her mum when I was young and stupid. Granted it wasn't anything life changing but I hurt her. And I'm sorry. Any men who tells a woman he will never hurt doesn't grasp the concept of time and clearly isn't breathing. We are imperfect humans. Of course we make mistakes. Only the brave ones apologies for those mistakes.
So if you are thinking I'm going to say sorry for those online male abusive behaviours, I'm not. What would be the point? Most trolls are teen boys. They are still get to become men. I just hope some of them grow up to say sorry and apology.
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It's been a tough time for the love I have for my daughter and I.
Due to 'relationship matters' with adults we haven't been able to hang out as much as I would like.
I would love for us to hang out with family and friends for weekend but it hasn't been possible. Mostly grown ups are to blame. Grown ups fucking suck. But on the flip side my hatred for teenage boys could reach fever pitch at any moment. Then again over the top holier than thou feminists could tempt me to start owning cats.
It's been a funny day going into my daughter's birthday. Family had a huge get together so I mainly hid in my room listening to mental health happy hour (a podcast I highly recommend) and exploring the Guys We Fucked podcast. Guys, This week I did my first ever podcast for my personal blog and I'm hoping it's not long until I do a podcast for this site. So for me the way to learn what I like and can do for others in a podcast depends on what podcasts I listen to and what you guys need in a podcast. The one thing I love about Happy Hour and so far GWF podcast is a similar sense of humour. A reason why I watch, subscribe and bum the fuck out of Watch Girls Play.
One: Humour and cussing. I think they mostly have similar humour and some beliefs that I do.
Two: I find them all attractive. Because I'm vain and visit all women family members, sister, mum, daughter. There are very few men in my life and I doubt I would accept them. Because most men are cunts. These are facts.
Three quickly is playing the games I don't have the balls to play but I need to go back a step. It's the reason why I'm writing this pitch dark at 5 in the morning.
Mankind, I am fucking ANGRY at you.
Listening to GWF and previous posts on here about war of the sexes it's easy to understand why there is such a thing as this war however neither side does anything to calm down the war and tonight... Well that was a super example. I just spend 20 minutes before bed watching properly twitch player Kaceytron and I was horrified at the abuse she was getting in game and in chat.
Now I'm not the type of twitch-er which watching hours on end. I'll watch here and there mainly female streamers. But from what I understand mods are in place, the chat is mostly respectful and friendly. So I'm not sure if this was Troll Thursday or mods were on a coffee break but someone clearly pissed off someone and I started watching slap bang in the middle of a steam voice chat fight. Let's say chat fight in future as it reminds me of cat fight and kind of continues the female linked theme of this post.
As I continue to tell you guys, banter I'm all for. I'm hoping even Happy Hour can back me up on this. Some mother fuckers in the world are too coddamn sensitive. They need Jesus. But the abuse and name calling I heard, maybe it's the father or the literal (only) about the man or even the I love most female non monogamous pervert in me just saw this abuse and it made my blood BOIL. I heard something about sexual acts: listen to me. E-fucking-nough with this men do it, they are awesome women do it they are sluts shit. For real. I'm cunting sick of it. Then again I feel this post should be the random yet fitting end to the Sexes War Trilogy which has hurt my brain for so long. The first two, yes. I'm aspie. I'm awkward and I have no idea how to talk to women. I have to play the Rocky soundtrack to go out and buy milk. I am fucking lonely. But this one? Yes. Of course I'd like to get into a lady's pants as well as her arms as a future result of this post but:
NO WOMEN SHOULS HAVE TO BE ASHAMED OF THEIR SEXUALITY OR FEELINGS ABOUT SEX. WHETHER IT'S MONOGAMOUS, NON, NONE OR OTHER.
EVER.
In fact no one should full stop.
I keep thinking of the time I when to a school in a working class town and I was walking with some male friends. Ahead of us was a lesbian school girl (which is a hot phrase I never thought I would type in a serious context) and my mates took it upon themselves to start throwing insults at this girl. I remember saying that everyone should be free to do and choose their own path in life or words to that effect. The girl turned around after I said this. I thought she was going to punch me but she actually offered me a chewing gum. We've been friends for over 20 years now. Actually she is now a he. But I will still support them. Always. Unless he starts supporting Manchester United. Only cunts support Manchester United. Trust me. I'm an arsenal fan.
And I'm pretty sure only cunts would throw sex based insults at women on the internet. Mainly teen aged boys. I don't believe there is any point of throwing insults at girl gamers. As men surely that's one of the things we look for in the ideal life/long term partner. Similar interests. Now I'm not saying Watch Girls Play, Kaceytron, Ssniperwolf shall be in my bedroom naked already beginning the orge because they couldn't wait for my cock but showing those women respect not just for gaming and being pretty female gamers but are they not human beings? I would love to know how many of these abusive men would be abusive in real life?
For my daughter's and my knuckles sake not many and less that she knows them and lesser that I see them. She is getting to an age where she is starting to learn about sex, boys and how it all 'works'. Gross.
But I don't want her to be let down by men. Like I let down her mum when I was young and stupid. Granted it wasn't anything life changing but I hurt her. And I'm sorry. Any men who tells a woman he will never hurt doesn't grasp the concept of time and clearly isn't breathing. We are imperfect humans. Of course we make mistakes. Only the brave ones apologies for those mistakes.
So if you are thinking I'm going to say sorry for those online male abusive behaviours, I'm not. What would be the point? Most trolls are teen boys. They are still get to become men. I just hope some of them grow up to say sorry and apology.
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